– YOU LOOK–
– HI. – YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL.
– THANK YOU. – YEAH, I LOVE THE NECKLACE TOO. – THANK YOU SO MUCH.
– I LOVE THAT. – THIS IS MY THIRD TIME
BEING HERE. THIS IS SO EXCITING. [cheers and applause] – WE LOVE HAVING YOU HERE, AND HOW ARE YOU? – I’M DOING WELL.
I’M DOING WELL, YEAH. THANK YOU. IT’S CERTAINLY BEEN, YOU KNOW, A PRETTY ROUGH YEAR, BUT I’VE BEEN SURROUNDED
BY SUCH GREAT PEOPLE, SUCH GREAT FAMILY. HI, MOM.
HI, DAD. THEY’RE SO SAD
THAT THEY CAN’T BE HERE. THEY JUST BOUGHT A HOUSE
IN L.A., SO… – WELL, THERE’S EXCUSE.
WHERE ARE THEY? IT’S NOT LIKE– – THEY’RE COMING HERE SOON, BUT THEY WISH
THAT THEY COULD BE HERE. – WELL, NEXT TIME YOU COME BACK, BRING ‘EM HERE. – DEFINITELY. MY MOM SAID SHE WAS SO UPSET THAT SHE COULDN’T BE HERE. – WHAT’S HER NAME?
– EDITH. – EDITH, COME ON.
WHERE ARE YOU? – YEAH. – AND I UNDERSTAND– IT WAS CRAZY, BECAUSE, YOU KNOW,
THERE WERE RUMORS THAT WHEN KATE HUDSON
DID “GLEE,” THAT PEOPLE DIDN’T GET ALONG, AND THEN WHEN YOU WERE GOING
THROUGH SUCH A DIFFICULT TIME, YOU ACTUALLY KIND OF HID OUT
AT HER HOUSE, RIGHT? – YEAH, ALL THOSE RUMORS
WERE SO WEIRD, AND WE EVEN WERE CALLING
EACH OTHER, BEING LIKE,
“THIS IS SO CRAZY.” IT’S SO UNBELIEVABLE
WHAT PEOPLE CAN MAKE UP. YOU KNOW, ALL THE–90%
OF THE STUFF THAT YOU READ, IT’S JUST COMPLETELY FABRICATED,
MOST OF IT. AND SHE WAS SO WONDERFUL TO BASICALLY GIVE ME HER HOME TO MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. IT WAS SO HELPFUL TO JUST BASICALLY HAVE
A SAFE PLACE TO PROCESS AND JUST HAVE
A MINUTE TO, YOU KNOW, BREATHE BEFORE GETTING BACK TO MY HOUSE, WHICH HAS A LOT OF MEMORIES
AND STUFF, SO BEING SOMEPLACE ELSE TO JUST
HAVE A MOMENT WAS REALLY… – I CAN’T IMAGINE THAT–
YOU’RE GOING THROUGH THE LOSS, YOU’RE GOING THROUGH FEELINGS
AND ALL THIS, AND THEN YOU TRY TO GO OUT
OF YOUR HOUSE, AND THERE’S PAPARAZZI OR PEOPLE
JUST HANGING OUT. YOU CAN’T EVEN, LIKE– THEY DON’T GIVE YOU THE DECENCY,
THE RESPECT, TO GRIEVE
AND DO WHAT YOU NEED TO DO THAT YOU GO HIDE SOMEWHERE. – IT’S PRETTY INTENSE. AND THEN IF YOU SMILE,
IT’S LIKE, “SHE’S SO HAPPY,” AND THEN IF YOU’RE, YOU KNOW, IF YOU LOOK SAID, THEY’RE LIKE, “SHE’S TERRIBLE.” AND IT’S LIKE, YOU KNOW,
IT’S JUST REALLY HARD. THERE’S SO MANY
DIFFERENT EMOTIONS, AND TO KIND OF HAVE PEOPLE
WATCHING EVERY STEP OF THE WAY, BUT TO HAVE THAT TIME
AT HER HOME TO JUST REALLY, YOU KNOW,
BE IN PRIVATE WITH THIS FOR A MOMENT, BEFORE GETTING BACK TO WORK AND BEFORE GOING HOME WAS– I’M SO THANKFUL TO HER. – YEAH. AND THEN YOU HAD TO– YOU ACTUALLY HAD TO GO BACK
TO WORK ON “GLEE” SHORTLY AFTER CORY’S PASSING, AND WAS THAT GOOD BECAUSE
YOU WERE AROUND PEOPLE THAT WERE EXPERIENCING
SIMILAR THINGS, OR WAS IT HARDER OR… – YEAH, WELL, RYAN MURPHY,
WHO’S SO AMAZING, YOU KNOW, HE CAME
TO KATE’S HOUSE, AND HE SAID, YOU KNOW,
“WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO? WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO,
WE’LL DO.” I SAID, “I HAVE TO GO BACK
TO WORK. “YOU KNOW, WE HAVE TO. THIS IS OUR–THEY’RE MY FAMILY.” AND, YOU KNOW, WHAT PEOPLE ALSO
DON’T UNDERSTAND IS THAT GOING TO WORK
IS NO HARDER THAN BEING AT HOME AND BEING IN THE HOUSE AND OPENING UP A CLOSET
AND SEEING A PAIR OF SHOES. IT’S LIKE, THERE’S– GRIEF GOES WITH YOU
EVERY DAY, WHATEVER YOU’RE DOING, WHEN THERE’S GREAT MOMENTS, WHEN THERE’S HARD MOMENTS, SO I’D RATHER, FOR ME, BE AT WORK WITH THE PEOPLE
THAT I LOVE, THAT ARE GOING THROUGH
THE SAME THING, AND IT OBVIOUSLY HAS ITS OWN
TRIGGERS, YOU KNOW, BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, I FEEL SO SAFE THERE, AND LIKE I SAID,
THEY’RE MY FAMILY. – AND WAS THE TRIBUTE, WAS IT– IT MUST HAVE BEEN CATHARTIC. THERE WAS, YOU KNOW, KIND OF
CLOSURE OR WHATEVER TO ADDRESS IT, BUT, I MEAN, HOW YOU GOT
THROUGH IT, AND EVEN THE TEEN CHOICE AWARDS, I JUST YOU JUST HAVE BEEN
SO STRONG, BECAUSE ANYONE WHO’S LOST
SOMEONE CLOSE TO THEM KNOWS WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE, BUT TO DEAL WITH IT PUBLICLY
AND TO HAVE TO JUST– LIKE YOU SAID, THERE’S GOOD DAYS
AND BAD DAYS. I THINK YOU’VE BEEN AMAZING.
– THANK YOU. – I THINK YOU’VE BEEN
REALLY, REALLY GREAT. – I REALLY FEEL LIKE I’M STILL
TRYING TO FIGURE OUT ALL OF THIS. IT’S BEEN ONLY A FEW MONTHS. BUT MY MOM HAS EXPERIENCED
A LOT OF LOSS IN HER LIFE, AND SHE TOLD ME AT ONE POINT,
SHE SAID, “THERE IS AN EMPOWERMENT
THAT COMES WITH GRIEF. “AT SOME POINT YOU FIND IT,
AND IT’S VERY HARD, BUT YOU WILL FIND IT.” AND I THINK THAT AT
A CERTAIN POINT YOU CAN CHOOSE TO SORT OF FALL
FROM THIS OR YOU CAN CHOOSE TO RISE, AND THAT’S WHAT I’M JUST TRYING
TO DO MY BEST– FOR HIM, BECAUSE THAT THAT’S
WHAT HE WOULD HAVE WANTED, AND TO JUST DO MY BEST AND TO, YOU KNOW, HOPEFULLY, MAKE SOMETHING,
YOU KNOW, POSITIVE FOR WHERE I GO
IN THE REST OF MY LIFE. – SOMEONE TOLD ME SOMETHING ONCE THAT HAS STUCK WITH ME. WHEN YOUR HEART IS BROKEN, WHEN YOU HAVE CRACKS
IN YOUR HEART, IT LETS THE LIGHT IN. IT LETS THE SUN IN. AND I JUST–I HOLD ON TO THAT
ALL THE TIME, BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO. YOU HAVE TO KNOW THAT. WHEN CORY WAS HERE, HE WAS–HE ADMITTED HERE
ON THE SHOW, BECAUSE Y’ALL WERE SO ELUSIVE ABOUT ADMITTING YOU WERE
A COUPLE, AND WHEN HE WAS HERE, HE WAS SO ADORABLE, YOU KNOW, TALKING ABOUT
AND ADMITTING– – I KNOW. IT’S ONE OF MY
FAVORITE MEMORIES. I REMEMBER WHEN HE CAME HOME
THAT NIGHT, AND HE SORT OF PUFFED OUT
HIS CHEST AND HE WAS LIKE, “I TALKED ABOUT YOU ON ‘ELLEN’
TODAY.” AND I WAS SO HAPPY. HE WAS SUCH A PRIVATE PERSON, AND I LITERALLY LIVED EVERY DAY
OF MY LIFE FEELING LIKE THE LUCKIEST GIRL
IN THE WHOLE WORLD. I JUST THOUGHT
HE WAS THE GREATEST MAN. AND SO, YOU KNOW,
AT THAT MOMENT, THAT MEMORY, IT’S JUST–
IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME. – YEAH, HE WAS A GREAT GUY. AND YOU ARE A GREAT LADY. – THANK YOU. – WE WILL TAKE A BREAK, AND WE’LL BE BACK WITH
LEA MICHELE.